As a person, I’ve really come a long way, but today I have realised that all the pride and happiness I get from being proud of being a good person is just a lie.
I just have a really bad mouth…. And I keep saying things I shouldn’t , I feel like a complete arse , I shouldn’t be allowed to treat people like this.
But then again I don’t know how to control that …. I have so much light in me , but its like I’ve snapped it shut in a shell because of the way I talk .
I wish I were dumb. 😐:'(
But then again another challenge to complete …. 😐 😓
Hating myself for this , but then its a chance to change something . I don’t feel like myself ……. And I’m beginning to hate myself for what I’m doing to all the people in my life . I just need a break from myself. The more I try , the worse I become. And I feel terrible .