Yesterday I was so fed up of life I wanted to leave this world for good. I had lost all faith in this world …. I really was or rather am looking for ways to live.
I ve decided not to let failure define me .If I am not a good person in another person’s life it does not mean I have to give up on live entirely.
Mustapha came to see me today , brought me some material for studying as my laptop had crashed a few days back. I just poured out every thing I had on my mind. He just suggested I should focus on studying and not let depression attacks want me to give up on this world.
I’m still trying to make up my mind . There are very little reasons to live in this world …. I really have to start looking very hard for them .
I really want to be happy …. But as it seems I don’t know how to be happy .
Smiling seems to help ,
My goal now is to be the most I can be , without any body’s opinion. The person whose opinion matters most is Me .
Even if nobody likes me …. I accept me … I love me … And that is really what matters most .