My worst nightmare


Life seems so simple, doesn’t it? All be born, study , pass, get a job, settle down, get some kids, and they continue this cycle, then grow old, and finally kick the bucket and pass on.


Some people dont get how we feel when all the world seems to be eating you up, you feel about to drown in a bucket of your own stress. Student , its a simple word right, most over acheivers have made this word mean :
S – studious
T – trustworthy
U -understanding
D -Dutiful
E -extraordinary
N -never failing
T – trouble never.

But most of the times the S is misinterpreted  . S should stand for self motivating. And this can only be done when teachers look at their students as a group and motivate students to learn, improve self confidence in students, shield the under acheivers and / or average students in order to make students feel studious.

Thats by the way  the topic  of today is that i feel i am living in a nightmare, i oversleep  ,i cannot study enough   ,i am a bit plump, not tall enough, a bit unsucessful in people matters ,i am also a bit talkative, dont know what to do.

My exams are 14 days away, dont know what to do . I feel so stressed  ,and frustrated. I feel terrible.


So much to learn, so much to do all i will do is make a prayer ,and let it go

Just let it roll right of my shoulders in the end ,the hardest part is over
Its not the end of the world
Its small hours that will still remain
Let my troubles fall behind me.
Its these small hours that are little wonders i will survive.

All i wish now is for  my life to fall

in place, i will live because its never the end of the world. And i will fight, no matter what if i cant make A ‘s without studying ,i will study, and i will come through. Because life never ends


The sunset is never the end of the day its to signify a break in supply of sunlight



There is always gonna be a new day and always make me smile always  .


Most people will not remember me, but i will though in my heart i will always stay me.

I can change my personality but i will always be me.


What i feel today


Its quite an awful day . I feel strange like missing a train or an exam  . Its saturday but i feel like i have gone nuts.

Like the skies have turned blue -black
The earth is slipping away
Like the dark night skies
The day has camouflaged
I feel so this way
A star lost from its galaxy.

All this i felt today.  Must be weird.  Or a sign that time has flown away.  Need to go start study.


The light i was waiting for has certainly come ,though life has something else  in store
Time will will surely tell  me.”

12th march 2014

Today was a really weird day, i reached school  and realised the chemistry practical exam is on friday and not today. 
Isaac and Paul were in class, they laughed themselves silly, though both had also believed rumours about the exam preponed to today.
Sakina from H class came as well, laughed myself silly as well. Then Asma and Sameera came by from H class, we moved to the lab and acertained that Sumaila from their class was right!  . Imagine my fury!  .
And not even one phone call to ask me to stay at home. 
Ham came by, my bond brother was really studying as his paper was today .
Salma and Modesta from A (my)  and H respectively arrived.  She acted really funny ,all angry at me not warning her not to come.
Later she became sober, and we had a laugh.
   Mr. Hakeem Kappiah , our physics tutor had his book ready  , he was selling it at a rate of 20  per book.  Quite expensive!! 
  Salma and I  ,left  to buy some snacks, and to gossip ( lol)  on the way.! 
   Ham was in the classroom apparently studying . His paper was after 3 hours! .
  I bought a fanta. And salma got some biscuits.  We came back and met Amina ( A class)  on the way. 
   Amina is a real heartbreaker ( Salma no less)  well u can only guess.  Ha. 
       Amina went on to get some work done. And Salma and i proceded to study our chemistry. 
   The lesson went on for half an hour. Then my ride came ( dad called me to find out what was happening, had to tell him!).  Reached home at 10 : 40 .


I start my exams in three weeks,worried sick about exam, its so unrealistic how people are shown on tv as geniuses or einsteins, in reality its absolutely once in a blue moon such a phenomenon occurs .
Family expects me to get excellent grades, but i feel scared, i want to tell the world i am ready to fly ,but bugger this education system, people are chosen based on their knowledge rather than skill or expertise .
Rather than go get myself killed i will double study times, who knows i will get lucky! .